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Right now I can’t sleep because I feel quite anxious, I’m waiting to see how this week and this month is going to pan out…and It’s not the best feeling in the world (I was distracted all day), but while I struggle to push the anxiety down, I’ve found my “comfort” in my memories. Now that I think about it, He has never let me down in my life.
Everything I have asked for, He has given (He didn’t always give it right away, but He gave it the RIGHT WAY, in his perfect timing)
When I’m a little anxious, I like to look through my Spain 2010 photos, and I’m reminded how God always comes through. That photo was taken in Pamplona, Navarra! (Universidad de Navarra, it was empty when I first arrived in Pamplona because my dad and I were too early!)
I wanted to study abroad (in the US, as a matter of fact!) since I was in grade school. I thought the US was amazing, and I set my heart on going there for college. As HS stretched out, I realized that my parents weren’t going to allow me to go there (and at that time we didn’t have enough resources to just catapult me there, as I had 4 other siblings that they had to care for and love as well).
I became extremely bitter about the whole situation.
While I was in HS, I just kept telling God: I’m missing out. You aren’t giving me my heart’s desires, and YOU promised You would. Why can’t I go to the US to study? Why can’t I get the education I want? WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY? I kept asking WHY.
But I should have just asked God: WHEN?
I entered University, and my parents still told me to keep my faith up, that maybe someday I’d get a chance to study abroad, possibly for graduate studies. I decided they were right and I shouldn’t focus on what I wasn’t getting.
All of a sudden, I had an opportunity to study for 6 months in Spain, in my 3rd year of University. The idea was just incomprehensible for me. I never even thought about studying in Europe, my little mind had only thought of studying in the US.
In a few, extremely rushed months, I suddenly had a ticket to Spain, and my finances (which of course, was one of the BIGGEST CONCERNS for me) for it were taken cared of. I had 6 months of an amazing journey in Europe, and I was able to visit Norway and France! I only asked for study time in the US and God gave me MORE. He gave me a chance to see Europe, study in Spain, visit 2 other countries and make some great friends, and learn about different cultures.
That dream of mine to study abroad took about 8 years before it happened, but when it did…God made it more than I had asked for.
So, I guess, that gives me peace that He is still in control of my life now, and as I am praying for breakthroughs in my life, no matter how long it takes, I know God is going to make it happen, and when He does, it’s going to be better than I imagine it to be.
I also want to end this blog entry with this touching photo that has no connection whatsoever to the story, but it makes me happy and I am also asking God for a bulldog, so I might as well upload a photo of one!